Toxicity in my mind...

If you think about something over and over agian... in the back of your mind... in the front... it's going to sink in. You're going to believe.
Think about it we learn our language through repetition.
We learn everything in the begining through repetition.
So now don't you think it's possible to convince ourselves that something is.
I've been reading this book about toxic thoughts, and how they ruin relationships.
It seems so truthful to me. and the more i conciously hear my self-talk the more i can turn the toxic thoughts away and think more positivley.
I think i've made quite an advancement... but all to soon i think that its better...
its only the begining.

So i'm bored and slightly exhausted writing this.

I'm such an envious person. I just realized this when i was looking through some photos of my friends. THey look so happy. Like they are going where they want with their lives. I wish i could find that focus, and know exactly what i want. It would make all this seem so easy.

So im going to sleep!